On a theme by Ellsworth Kelly

Heather had never liked her name. When she said to people, "hello, I'm Heather," she didn't feel good about the way they looked at her. This difficulty had persisted since childhood; one therapist suggested Heather's dislike of her name gave her the ability to abstract, to literally "step outside herself," making it sound as if self-loathing was a gift. It's true, Heather could be two places at once, sitting for instance at a dinner table with others while imagining she was laying on her bed in mid-afternoon, her favorite time of day, the window open a crack, the curtains three-quarters drawn, not so much to keep the light out but to encourage the breeze to move the curtain softly, like someone was behind the curtain breathing.

 Spectrograph, Ellsworth Kelley canvas, pre-gesso, July 26, 2017. 

Spectrograph, Ellsworth Kelley canvas, pre-gesso, July 26, 2017.